Short Update
My first blog post in a while. Many thoughts but as always I need tot start somewhere!
The phase with the Corona virus has been an amazing time. For all the restrictions and limitations, there has been a certain ease in the changes that have helped me in my life. For me it’s been focusing on my health, myself and most importantly what I want in life. This has previously been clear at times, but the extra time that I have had, through not running from one commitment to the next, has meant I have had time to focus and actually focused on doing the things that I love… Creating!
Creation is always a time consuming, step by step process. Anything that is worthwhile takes a bit of time to achieve and develop. When you have a passion for something, that time and effort put in makes me feel alive. I’ve noticed a certain resistance I have to putting the energy and focus in, though it has more to do with getting started than the actual process. A weakness of mine, that I want to improve on. But once I am in, engrossed in the task at hand, time flies! Setting reachable goals in bite size chunks has been the key. Even just setting aside 10 mins at the start of my “working” morning to focus gets me going. Sometimes I set a timer to create a space and purposely intensify or tunnel my attention. This has really helped. The distractions go away for those 10 mins (that often turn into 45 mins or more). It’s a positive tunnel that I enter, being able to block out externalities and having random thoughts disappear. It has given me a general improvement in my focusing ability and this is very productive. Combining that with prioritising and putting the important tasks first each day no matter what, I feel like I am making progress, developing myself, spending more time doing that which I love, which creates a feedback loop, wanting to doing more and more!
Setting fixed routines yet being flexible about what happens inside the time or the way of doing them has helped too. Helped me to stick to my goals!
Also having small tangible goals, that I can achieve within a few days and growing my skills at the same time have helped. Writing applications, pulling out a piece of music that I want to choreograph to and mapping a plan. Spending time in the studio for myself, to create. Organising rehearsals with other dancers so that I actually come to creation. Now, again blogging my thoughts. Reflecting on classes and watching videos of where I am with my choreography. It’s a passion and a love for the process which I have managed to continually make time for. Nothing is a waste. I’m not afraid to make mistakes and I actually even enjoy them, for I learn a lot more! The whole time spent is developing me, my skills and my knowledge of who I am - giving to myself.
It is a phase itself, but as my life gets busier with classes returning and more projects filling up my time, I am determined to keep the balance that “Corona” has given me. And also move further in the direction of creating, researching and exploring - the things that I love doing!